Friday, January 9, 2009 ♥
wat the fuck is the prob with my class nowadays? so realistic, juz because results no gd, they immed turn their back to u when it comes to grping or watsoever. u r nt the first in their mind, they only take u in when there is a vacancy n b4 that, they will think negativiely that the presence of u affect their total grades. they only think results impt can liao, in grp work, but juz think, if u do nt have the other stuff, lk creativity n skills, lk computer n presentation, then wat's the pt? even if u noe how to do that proj, do nicely, but when comes to presentation, u stammered n then spoil the whole thing. in the end wat u get? maybe a pass only.fyp grping oso. all form liao, n i, in the end, s usual, was the last one to be inform. looks lk i have to join the other classes again. who they do they think i m? a garbage to be left out or thrown out of the class ar? summore, neglected by 2 of my trusted frenz. that's the worst that can happen to u. tell them, i nt that easy to trifle with. once the presentation of fyp, i m gg to make them regret that they did nt choose me. gonna wow them with gd presentation skills n contents. by that time, dun come to me saying, we r sry we dun have u in our grp. if gt the chance, can i work with u? i dun care 4 this. i had alr seen those fake faces of theirs, n i dun want to waste my time making them fake more. i juz want to wipe off those smirks on their faces. let them c is nt those with gd results that do well. is other qualities.another thing. i sth really dun understand wat my class wants. they say my attitude very bad when i tok, now when i tok less or prefer nt to tok at all, they can find another reason to continue dun lk me. now is my work quality, say i hand in slip-shod work. crap lah. i spend so much time researching so many websites, take from many sources, make into a perfect ans. check first b4 handing in, still say i anyhow do. another reason is din hand in work on time, this one more crap. when did i ever hand in my things late? think lah. i admit sth the ans i find is nt wat the qns is asking, but did i leave it blank? i din, i go around asking 4 help n go find notes. if really cun find, i try to put an ans that i think is correct or close to it. n yet wat they say? slipshod work s i anyhow do. say i cfm rush thru one. crap siah... seriously, i m beginning to get tired by all these liao. i hope all these will end. i cun be bothered alr, let them say wat they want. once they r tired, they will stop. i juz want to take a break now, away from class politics. once all prac end, i m free liao. i m on my own, dun need to do wat others tell u to do. when i do wat they tell me to do, they nt satisified. i volunteer to do, they nt happy. when i din volunteer, they say i do nt play a part. even when i m given a qns that is quite diff to find by them to do, i juz do w/o any comments. y is my class ppl thinking so weird?then say i lazy n nt motivated to study. no goals in life, cause i score all borderline pass. lucky nt to forward s with my type of results, i sure forward. but wat they noe? how can they say i m lazy when i go lessons everyday, do work n listen in class. if i lazy , i wun do their work at all. no motivation? i wun be gg to sch at all. i score borderline pass is cause some of the modules r quite hard 4 me to understand. that doesn't mean i dun try. i do tutorials, ask when in doubt n take down tips. sometimes, a person is born clever, learn things fast. but i m nt, so i require more time to do n understand. but that dun mean i give up n dun try. if i give up, i wold have give up last yr, when class politics is still on. i would have either change class or quit sch totally.y i dun want change class? gd qns. i shall tell u, cause the more they want to outcast me so that i could leave them, the more i feel determined that i shd stay n prove to them that i will nt give in to them so easily. i shall let them c that i can still survive under all those harsh conditions. i will remain till graduation. i hope by that time, they can all realise their mistakes. i wun fall so easily. Gambatte!phew! feel so much better after saying all those. oso feel gd to let it all out, including crying. i shall be brave n stand up firm. the more they bully me, the more i will stand up to them. hope all of u can support me.
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