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Thursday, April 9, 2009 ♥

y is god treating me this way? y is heaven so unfair to me? y, oh y? these thought had been in my mind 4 the whole day. y does everything nt turn out according to wat i desired or plan? i had alr suffered 2 setbacks 4 the past 1 wk, n now it had to let me encounter another one, which makes it a total of 3 setbacks in juz 1 mth.
cannot keep up with my pretense any more, i m suffering a lot inside. cannot take it any longer. only putting on a brave front in front of my frenz n parents, but when alone, will feel so depressed n cry.
nearly cried but fought back my tears this morning when i was told i could nt pass cptc. last night din receive call, so went ji happily, din expect that i would be called out by my trainer telling me that i had failed. fuck! y dun he called me or try his best to call me last night, so that dun need to bring my hopes up high n let it fall very badly the nxt day. y so cruel?
juz because of some stupid criteria that cptc set n we r the first batch to tio it. resulting me failing the whole cptc juz because my theory part is bad. last time was total add up above 50% then can pass le, but now is each component must pass to pass the whole thing. n, y dun cptc have different certs, lk distinction, merit, pass n participation, so that everyone have a chance to be on stage, w.o feeling ps that ur frenz noe u fail juz because u were nt on stage. at least if each person gt cert, u can choose to nt let ur frenz noe ur grades. now best, everyone sure noe i fail cause i nt on stage juz now, n may start asking me y i fail when i go back sch?
i feel that i really cannot take all these anymore. trying to shrug it off, but the more i ignore, the more the thing starts coming back to haunt me. feeling very tired alr, i juz want to slp n slp this whole thing off, w/o waking up again. i want to escape from this cruel society, where only elites can survive. if u dun c me online tmr, u noe sth is wrong. u can try to call me, but i may nt ans. i am in a state of ignorant these few days, so pardon me if i blow up top or din ans ur calls these few days. if u din c me online 4 the nxt few days, then sth must be really very very wrong. who noes? maybe i m gone from this world or maybe i m still holding on to wat's left of the flickering light ahead of me, my only source of warmth n hope. juz pray that u will be able to c me again, if nt i will come back to haunt all those who bully me in the past, esp my class.
will upload the last most recent pictures of me on facebook n friendster b4 u will nt get to c me post my pics again.

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ChEe pEi YuN
5th july 1990
Girl with a cancer horoscope
Sweet 18
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9. Trip 2 australia
10. Trip with frenz
11. Go to S.H.E life’s concert at front row seat.
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